worried

i confuse myself. i have weird fetishes i dont like talking about. i know they exist but i dont like they being there. i dont like them being a part of me. i feel like i should burn. i feel bad. shamed. unevolved.

webcam?

i am a webcam model now who lives with her boyfriend. hes 26. im 18. i work full time at home it gets pretty lonely and frustrating. i have major anxiety now but at least for the most part my depression from childhood has subsided. i am forced to be a dirty talker and do small penis humiliation for my site, two things im not used to i really need guidance.