i keep hearing whistling outside. its really fucking creepy and im scared if im just imagining it or if its real either way its just fucking scary.

im moving to new york. i hope weed is cheap there i hear its not and everything is over priced. it will be the first time i go live on my own, well away from home. after a few months i plan moving else where maybe baltimore? i dont know for sure yet, id rather not worry. im trying to convince my mom to take me to the LGBTQ pride parade this weekend. she keeps saying maybe. that always means no. i came out to her wen i was 11 or 12 i cant remember but wat i do remember was being told i was crazy and that in time i will change and bisexuality doesnt exist. we never talked about it since then. i am unsure if i should talk to her about my sexuality again. it doesnt bug me that she is this way, fuck i dont even care i just wanna go to that parade to support my people. since im moving though im having a party. i hope there is drugs and beer. i also hope i get laid given it would be my last day here ... preferably a girl? i am excited for all this to come but for now i am out of weed and money and drugs and almost out of cigarettes. being bored unemployed watching netflix all day with no drugs is boring and i hope my move will bring me fun im not sure yet and new yorkers scare me.